June 28, 2017
June 28, 2017 This is the real me. Straight out of bed, no makeup, face full of acne & bags under my eyes from weeks of sleepless nights. I’ve never love my body. In fact I've always hated myself. Compliments always made me feel guilty and ashamed for not appreciating my blessings. Even if reached a personal fitness goal I’d immediately find something else that I wanted to change. I was never happy and I couldn’t understood why it became extremely aggravating. After being diagnosed with C-PTSD I found out I don’t know who I am and I’ve never had control over my body. It is hard to love your body when your brain associates it with being sexually abused as a child. In my eyes, I am an ugly, fat, disgusting person. I have been working on finding the real me while embracing and loving my body including my flaws. It is not easy and it isn’t happening over night but I am working VERY hard.